For one thing, my back is getting really sore again. Since I unraveled the repressed emotion / back pain connection I can now see that this is because I am pissed. at. my. siblings. who. are. bleeding. my. mother. dry. I am NOT repressing my anger about this topic and can only begin to guess [...]
Archive for April, 2009
Schmattering
Posted in Uncategorized on April 28, 2009 | 3 Comments »
Pinch Me
Posted in Uncategorized on April 27, 2009 | 2 Comments »
….well K pulled out all the stops for my impending 40th bday. He booked a suite — and incredibly luxurious and over-the-top glamorous suite at The Plaza Hotel. Now, I am a true lover of minimalism but I have to say the abundance of crystal chandeliers, crystal sconces in our room and gilt bathroom fixtures were [...]
Still Kickin
Posted in Uncategorized on April 24, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
No worries, I have not thrown myself into the sea. I am doing better…have more energy and feel less icky. Dad’s death has now morphed into one of those movies in my head….like, it is hard to believe it happened and it seems like a dream.
In other news, K is taking me to a super [...]
Sunday
Posted in Uncategorized on April 19, 2009 | 3 Comments »
Dad’s ceremony was beautiful and I truly think he was happy. It felt good. He did not look like himself at all and that gave me comfort because I knew he had moved on, was elsewhere. We just had family present and I liked the privacy of it and not having to make small talk [...]
More
Posted in Uncategorized on April 16, 2009 | 3 Comments »
It’s all still kind of surreal, like the actual death part almost seems like a movie. I total broke down when I said goodbye to him, privately, at the nursing home. And if felt good — 7 long months of pent up sadness and it felt good to weep for my sweet, old, tiny Dad.
Today [...]
He’s Gone
Posted in Uncategorized on April 15, 2009 | 2 Comments »
My Dad passed around 2:15 today. It was wrenching –the emotional experience of it. The end, his breathing was very labored and there were a few moments of terrible moans but he was not conscious at all and at that point and I don’t believe he was suffering. He sort of ebbed away. All of [...]
Evil Glasses
Posted in Uncategorized on April 13, 2009 | 3 Comments »
…when I have pms, it goes one of two ways– either I get all mushy and lovey or I put on my evil glasses and become completely intolerant of everyone elses foibles. Well you guess which way the tossed coin has fallen today whydontcha?
Actually, despite my brother being a total pric, Easter was lovely. We [...]
Hold onto your Hats!!! A Happy Post!
Posted in Uncategorized on April 9, 2009 | 1 Comment »
Ok…as an aside, I want to state for the record that all of these posts where I mention needing a cocktail or “pass the tequila” … I don’t actually do it. On average we have 1 bottle of wine every 2-3 weeks and the weekends I have 2 cocktails on Friday. I consider all of [...]
Love this guy
Posted in Uncategorized on April 9, 2009 | 1 Comment »
Waiting
Posted in Uncategorized on April 8, 2009 | 3 Comments »
I have that awful sick feeling, knot in the pit of my stomach today. My visit with Dad this morning brought new lows for both of us. His mind is gone, he’s on oxygen and was just a mess. I brought him his favorite food which he wouldn’t eat. My mother is thinking of moving [...]
